Some Thoughts

I went to bed last night at 9 o'clock - I therefore did not eat anything after dinner (minus a Starbucks mocha light - which clearly doesn't have enough caffeine in it because I then went to bed) I have found an incredibly impractical solution to avoid eating at night.

I did at least manage to wake up at 6:30 and then make it to work at 7:30. Getting to work this early (as opposed to 8, 8:15) always makes me happier.

I'm still working on my actual game plan - so no judging until I figure it out, although I think it will involve a lot of repetitive food at first.
My original plan was to pay someone to walk around with me daily and slap the ice cream/fifth piece of cheese/macaroni and cheese food out of my hand and hand me a carrot. I would eat the carrot. I even like carrots, I just don't grab them first. My husband informed me that we couldn't afford to pay someone to do that.

So plan B involves teaching myself to like eggs and eating mostly the same thing each day. The idea being that I eat around 1400 to 1600 calories daily, find other activities other than eating to do, and find 30 minutes of walking or biking (easiest part - sadly). The teaching myself to like eggs decision comes mostly from being tired of the looks of disbelief when I explain I do not like eggs and apparently they're healthy. My scheme is a bit Amelia Bedelia in nature; I thought if I start making scrambled eggs in the morning and add a lot of ketchup then I could at least eat the ketchup drenched eggs. If I start lessening the ketchup potentially I'll convince myself that the eggs taste good as well. I'll let you know how that goes tomorrow.

Getting Started: The Game Plan

I've been on the fence for a while.
Potentially because I know some people who blog and it seemed like the cool thing to do or perhaps because I really want to keep a journal, but am really to lazy to write things out. It always felt a bit silly, my urge to blog that is, and I wasn't quite sure what I would even talk about or how anyone would find my ramblings even interesting.
I've decided though, that this is for me - not for you whoever you are. Which means I'm not going to worry about grammar or opinions or covering up. Maybe everyone else out there has already figured this bit out and I'm just really slow to the party, it wouldn't be the first time.
This is a blog about my health. About my weight and my migraines. About the anxiety I feel when walking into a clothing store. About my inability to wake up before 7:30 am for any length of time and about my desire to climb a 45 story "sand dune hill" in Northern Michigan.
I'm tired of saying "well next week I'll be better" or "perhaps next month I can start exercising in the morning."
I've got the theory down; eat lots of fruits and vegetables, stay away from empty carbs and soda. It's just so hard. I eat when I'm stressed or sad or mad or frustrated or scared or nervous or excited or .....
well see my point - part of this journey is to find not just a substitution, but a solution to my desires to eat and eat for no reason other than I'm feeling something uncomfortable.

So I'm going to take a stab at it - and August 1st being a Sunday seems like a good starting point.
So if this seems mildly more entertaining then what you were about to do (or perhaps you just like me enough to find this entertaining on its own) then I invite you to join me as I attempt to figure all this healthy-being-stuff out for me.