Yesterday after church I found myself at a delicious Chinese restaurant staring at a menu. I asked my husband what I should get that would be healthy. I wasn’t a fan of his answer. I decided on a cup of Hot and Sour soup, white rice, steamed vegetables, and two crab cheese rangoons. I didn’t think I would be very happy with my meal, but I actually enjoyed the vegetables. I added a little soy sauce (yes I know, Sodium! But one can only ask for so much) and thoroughly enjoyed the veggies and rice. When they brought out the main entrées an egg roll was on my plate in place of the rangoons. I politely asked if they were out of crab cheese rangoons. They weren’t, our waitress had simply forgotten. So she brought out another plate with my two crab cheese rangoons and left the egg roll.
I, being the strong, self-willed enabler, placed the egg roll on the second small plate and left it to the side. I would take crab cheese rangoons over egg rolls any day, rangoons are the reason I like Chinese food. I might potentially even judge Chinese restaurants solely on the quality of their rangoons.
Anyways. The conversation moved on as we all ate and was so engrossing I can’t even remember what it was we were discussing, but I’m sure it was ridiculous as our best friends were sharing the table and often our husbands start off on something crazy.
And then it happened, I had happily eaten my veggies and rice, slurped my yummy Hot and Sour soup, and savored the rangoons. My hands then went towards the Egg Roll. I tore it in half and was about to place it in my mouth when I heard a voice from on high:
“You didn’t order that for a reason”. I looked around guiltily and then realized the voice wasn’t “from on high”, it was next to me in the form of Bethany who smiled and reminded me she wouldn’t bother if she didn’t love me. Mmhmm. I sighed and offered up the egg roll. Dru, my husband, quickly added it to his bowl of food and I sat there wondering why I was about to eat something that I didn’t even want.
How am I supposed to fight against an addiction when my mind is working against me and I’m not even aware of it?
How many empty calories have I eaten simply because food was in front of me?
Or because I was bored?
Am I even tasting the food?
1 comment:
You and I have the same problem. Doesn't matter where I am, so long as there is food I will eat it, and eat it, and eat it. Even if it doesn't really taste all that great, it just gives my ADD something to indulge on. That is why if I don't want to eat something I have to chew gum, that way I still have the fulfillment of my wandering mind, but I am not taking in calories. It works very well for me.
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